Year in Review

This year I: knew major change needed to happen--asked friends for help and received kindness that still amazes me--dated Mr. Bad Special Forces Guy--discovered dating him was my unfulfilled desire to have his life--went back to dating my best friend--re-taught myself algebra--visited Austin--told Greg I loved him--was told I was not loved--started doing girl push-ups--took the ASVAB--stopped getting haircuts--bought my first real suit--ran--joined a CrossFit--packed up my worldly goods--interviewed with army men who insulted me and thought I would be a better den mother--took I best camping trip ever--soaked in the Pagosa hot springs-- got drunk for the first time-- left Colorado--moved back in with my parents--saw trail fork as closest friends had babies--got a minimum wage job--was reminded how great midwesterners are as I found a group of girlfriends--re-learned how to laugh by visiting old roommate--knew I had no secrets when I met a girl who has all of the same ones--failed at the gym, kept going--gave up dairy, grains, starch, dessert, legumes--got better at the gym--got to know and value my parents as adults--threw my mom a long awaited surprise party--told Greg I would no longer be his special friend and stopped hearing from him--sold my beloved car 4 hours after listing it--threw a tacky craft New Year's party

2010, I am ready to close the door on you and bolt it shut. You are a demolition area. You have challenged my assumptions about God, the value of goodness, and what I wanted for my future. You have pushed me physically beyond what I thought was possible. You have reminded me that there are friends everywhere. Enough demolition. 2011 is the year of reinvention.