reconciling

I admit with some trepidation that I haven’t always loved men. I’ve been attracted to them. I’ve admired many. I’ve just also felt the need to compete and to hold a defensive stance. The gentle musicians, men of color, and gay men have been exceptions.

But now I feel like I’m finding more kindness in straight, white men. One of my fellow philosophy club members brought me an article today. They all listened to me and asked me to lead next time. A co-worker taught me a new game to play with my homeroom. A parent called with nice words. I don’t know if it’s been God’s provision to bring new men to me or His provision to change my heart towards them.