Being half-loved is like this-
Getting a half cup of coffee that's great at first sip but gets cold too quickly
Half one-armed side hugs that are the awkward domain of you-are-not-mine
The half-baked bread that's beautiful on the outside but a doughy mess inside
The not-half-bad of the project that was almost great
I would make this thing whole if I could (confessing I only believe 3/4 exists). Retail efforts work for minutes, having a good imagination helps when I'm bored, sweetness results in saying I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for my car, my clumsiness, my hair, cold hands, my wanting too much.
But half is better than none. (I think?)
Getting a half cup of coffee that's great at first sip but gets cold too quickly
Half one-armed side hugs that are the awkward domain of you-are-not-mine
The half-baked bread that's beautiful on the outside but a doughy mess inside
The not-half-bad of the project that was almost great
I would make this thing whole if I could (confessing I only believe 3/4 exists). Retail efforts work for minutes, having a good imagination helps when I'm bored, sweetness results in saying I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for my car, my clumsiness, my hair, cold hands, my wanting too much.
But half is better than none. (I think?)
3 comments:
well- the whole truth is that you deserve a whole-hearted whole love from one who loves you fully!
so good to see you back in type. i like reading your thoughts in addition to hearing them. but i guess that's just part of me that wants it all--not just half. ;) and ditto to suz.
I agree with Suz. You deserve whole. It exists, friend. Don't stay in half-ness. Though I know the hard and bitter tears of it, wholeness is worth the fight.
You're worth it...
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