Run for Your Life

I think living and working with so many males this year has put me in touch with aspects of my inner machismo I never knew existed. It's not so much about lifting weights or belching. It's more of a commitment-phobe thing. I met someone great at OCS. We were so desperately wanting to spend time together. He said he would visit next weekend. I got excited. I planned. I researched. He's not calling is delaying the trip. Ghosts of boyfriends past are coming back to haunt me, and now I think I should run for my life into the arms of the multitude. It seems like a better idea right now to be dating several people at once. Because 1. I could have a busy social calendar 2. everyone would be replaceable 3. I would probably have someone to talk to on the phone every night before bed

Don't worry. I don't know anyone here to go to the dark side with right now. I'm just saying I understand for the first time why this would be attractive. Could I become a player if I tried?